Demented and Sad, but social

So far being a Joaquin Phoenix minion has been pretty easy these last nine years. The hardest thing about loving the man has been all the scraping, digging and clawing that I’ve had to do to find any information on this enigma. An Oscar nominated Actor, who shuns the spotlight and doesn’t sensationalize his accomplishments. No one could call Joaquin a media whore. He doesn’t jump up and down on talk show Divas couches, wear suits made out of credit cards or kiss his closest relative on the mouth at awards shows. So, why all of a sudden is it like a whirlwind of all that rolled into a big fiasco? Its gotten so that I’m afraid to turn on my computer anymore. No telling what happened whil I slept. No telling what I’ll have to come up with a rationilazation for next. Its not a secret that I harbor quite a fondness for Joaquin Phoenix. Within five minutes of meeting me, any being possessing average intelligence can read the signs. If my Walk The Line dog tag doesn’t tip you off, my “I love Joaqion Phoenix” wristband or my Phoenix neck tattoo should leave no doubt in your mind. Use to be I would have to explain who he was at first. Have you seen____________________________? Walk The Line for the girls, Gladiator for the guys…..Most people would smile and nod their heads and say something like, “Oh yea! He’s good!” Now days, “you like Joaquin Phoenix?” is usually followed by: Whats up with him? “He quit acting right?” Why did he do that? “Is it drugs?” Cause you know what happened to Heath Ledger! “He wants to be a rapper?” Is he even any good? “Whats with the hair and the beard?” He looks like a homeless person! At first, I was a bit put upon by this line of questioning. Immediantly my defenses would go up and since I wasn’t sure of Joaqs motivation myself, folks making those queries would end up getting their heads bitten off and chewed. Mainly because, in the begining my fear was that he would disappear forever, build an Eco-friendly house in Florida and wander beaches barefoot for the rest of his life. When he announced that he would be going into music, I got excited all over again, although I can count the actors who have made that transition successfully on one hand. I was optimistic. When I heard it was Hip Hop music, yes I was a little disturbed. But Hey, Joaquin can do no wrong, right? So I made no snap judgements and I opened my mind, and I’ve watched and I’ve listened. Since Joaq declared his intention to retire, he has spent more time being talked about in the press, then he ever has in his entire career. Good thing he has built a resume people respected. Everyone insists he’s having a melt down. I do not subscribe to this opinion. Everyone says its drugs. Another opinion that I don’t share. If Joaquin is so far out there, wasted or whatever that nothing matters annd he’s going on talk shows and stages to “blow” his appearances with glassy eyed oblivious responses and heckler punching, someone in the Phoenix Clan not on the payroll or money hungry, needs to grab ahold of him and set him straight, don’t ya think? HELLO??? This is dangerous behaviour! Or is it? Do they know something that we don’t? I say: probably! I’ve read interviews where Joaquin has stated that he wished he were an unknown. Then no one would make such a big deal about his decision to Rap…Exactly!!! If he wasn’t Joaquin Phoenix no one would care! Sean Combs wouldn’t want to help him, 50 Cent wouldn’t be offering him advice in the press and there would be no videos on youtube asking him to Rap for a private label. He couldn’t have built a recording studio in his basement on what a struggling rap musician brings home and that million dollar bank account? A pipe dream!
I will be the last one to call Joaquin out. I admire a man courageous enough to follow his passion through shark infested waters, but he’s luckier than most. He has the resources to help himself….No disrespect meant – I’m just saying! The strange behaviour, the long hair and beard, Casey and his documentary all aside, I have been proud to love this man for nine years. Nothing short of a personal rejection will deter me. And right now Joaquin should be coveting all the minions he can get. These days questions about his intentions don’t phase me as much, I just smile and nod…….Joaq’s getting the hang of the game!